
Another Carlos
Casteneda marries Leonard Cohen crack-that-lets-the-light-in day on a recent Saturday kayaking expedition.
Started a little slow loading a kayak in the frosty morning
with ice still on the bird bath. Then to
Spoko fuel for petrol and a little
pre-kayaking treat of wedges of fried potatoes aka
jo jos.
Decided on French Rock, west side of the river down a little ways from the Kettle Falls crossing. It had looked protected and interesting on a scouting party. En route there I discovered Sherman Creek apple orchid in full fresh bloom reminding me of the
winelands of the Western Cape of South Africa. Okay none of the inimitable scenic whitewashed Cape Dutch gabled architecture against purple fold mountains..... but there was a similarity. orchards against a backdrop of mountains. Out of the corner of my eyes I could see other places I have been.

The colours, especially the blue of sky and fresh early spring green of bud at that point of the adventure were out of a child's crayon box in their intensity.Just after the orchard, a coyote bounded joyfully across my path. He looked over his shoulder, laughing directly at me. I swear he met my eyes. What is it about coyotes that whenever I see them they turn and look at me. Setting me up, huh?

I took a little side diversion to explore a deserted campsite where peahens with iridescent blue necks foraged amongst the
pinecones. It was the harsh cry coming from the woods more that the sight which had me feeling I had stepped through a crack in the worlds and was back in India. Or why did coyote take me down this road? To mock me for how tarnished India has become in this ordered oh so secular land of plenty?

At French Rock the water was calm at the launch. I found blue
triteleia flowering on the little bluff overlooking the cove whilst a yellow bellied marmot (thanks to
Morticia for the id) watched me from another.

The south wind was strongish when I left the shelter of the launching cove but I had already decided to paddle up river, then return with the flow. Not that it was as strong or noticeable as the tides in the Salish Sea.

I found islands of tumbled volcanic structure poking out of the sea. Some had
poetic pines, clinging in a Japanese woodblock way, and Canadian Geese.I played around a little bit in the interesting flows of water, calms and cross currents around the coves and bluffs of those islands. Though the light on water was, at times, reminiscent of some of my best prayer paddles on the clear salt water on the west side of the Cascades, this Lake Roosevelt water has a brooding deepness to it somehow. There's a visceral vertigo grabs at me at times. I feel wobbled from the deep with
chickenskin and sense of mysterious depths beneath me.

I realise how small and alone I am in this vast landscape of water, mountains and sky. Not a human being knows where I am most of the time and only the local critters see me: eagles, ravens, coyotes, marmots, geese, brilliant washes of yellow from the arrow leaf balsamroot. There's a stillness. Such a deep stillness surrounds.
The kayak sometimes feels irrationally wobbled and tipsy in a way that it never felt on the salt water. There I felt rocked, cradled, bobbed about but always
buoyant. On this fresh water, I feel a dark sinking precariousness.
People once walked paths of the drowned canyons I paddle over now. Built campfires on the banks of the river which flowed with salmon and life.
It takes a while for trust and communion to build up.
I am spending so much time alone, in the interior world these days. It takes all the covering off nerves and senses.
I found a sandy beach to have my lunch on. With half closed eyes and ignoring the cold wind off the snow still on the mountains around, I could almost imagine myself on a Hawaiian beach: white sand, water.
I lay and watched cloud shapes form and dissolve. A hand in the
vee of a peace sign formed. I lazily reached for my camera. When I looked again it had turned to the single fingered salute. Flipping the bird at me are you coyote? A shark swam across a different section of the sky, jagged jaws elongating.
Coming back the storm blew in with rain and a chill wind.